My church has been supporting many missionaries in different countries and at tonight's mission revival night, Uncle Bob shared about what he was doing in Europe. Uncle Bob (everyone calls him that instead of Rev. Lo... at least, all the younger ppl do) was one of our main English pastors (if memory serves me correctly) but left for church-planting work in Geneva, Switzerland at the end of '03, the year I began attending church. I heard him speak several times, but we never got to know each other. I've heard things about him from other people, like he's a superb cook, but I really wanted to get to know him personally because he seems very wise. I definitely got a wise vibe from him. Anyway, we were all looking forward to him giving a message, but instead, he gave us a report. Not that there's anything bad about that, I just wanted the message more :) However, he did share what was on his heart about being a missionary. He shared a simple story about a chicken and a hog in relation to how we should look at missions:
A farmer had a chicken and a hog on his farm. One day, the chicken and hog were outside the farmer's kitchen window. They were discussing who had the most to give to the farmer for his breakfast. The chicken said it lays eggs. The hog says it has to lay down its life.
Why can't we lay down our lives for God? Not only when it comes to missions, but everything. We shouldn't be the Christians that just "lays the eggs" and sit back and watch other Christians lay their lives down. God sent Jesus to die for us, when we were unworthy. How can we not give our all for our Creator? It just doesn't make sense to me. I really pray for radical change in myself. I can say all this and be so empty in my words if I do not have the actions to show for it. I want...to be so convicted to share the Good News with those that have not met Him yet, to be so passionate for His teachings and His Word, to be so anguished for those still living in the darkness and embracing the world and not Him...

I am currently in class, listening to how the media is an impact to the American Government. Sounds exciting, right? Chyeah, right.
At the same time I'm trying to re-install MSN Messenger 8.5 because they finally put a forced notice to download or else I can't sign in. It's driving me nuts. Maybe I'll have to give in to Version 9 D:
I feel compelled to turn this journal into a spiritual/devotional journal, just like my best friend joy_of_god . I am truly inspired by her entries and the amazing encounters and blessings she's experienced so far in her journey with God. Perhaps this is what will keep me accountable and on track in my relationship with Him.

Honestly, I haven't been much in touch with God. Yes, I pray, but that isn't enough. Yes, I'm serving, but that isn't enough. My heart isn't on fire as it should be. The Jesus in me is not glowing as it should. I feel like I'm trapped in my body knowing that I'm living my life dimly and I can't do anything to fight back. All the stuff going on, school, work, church activities, seem to be engulfing me in such a way that I forget my purpose. My life has been filled with blessings and miracles by God's grace and mercy, but what am I doing in glorifying Him? Of course, it isn't about how many ministries I'm in or how many people I bring to church or how many times I attend a Bible study or church each week. God doesn't care about quantity. We can do a million things for God and His Kingdom, but is our heart in it? Do we truly have the mindset of spreading His light on our friends and family or do we just do these things to show off? At the SPLIT prayer meeting last week, I had to point out that God is never-changing, always constant and a faithful God. Despite our shortcomings, busyness, and static in our lives, He is always there to listen and place us back where we should be. I think it’s time I let God put me back where He wants me to be.

1. What are you listening to right now?
Ai De De Ti-Leehom Wang

2. How do you style your hair?
straight blunt bangs; hair down

3. What are you wearing right now?
PJ's (sweater from elementary and sweats)

4. What are you currently reading?
Hmm. Ongoing would be Bible.

5. Dumbest thing you've done this week?
Arrived to work an hour early because I didn't receive the new schedule -_-

6. If you could go back in time where would you go?
any of the Leehom encounters/concerts

7. Theme song playing in the background as you die? 
I never thought about this. And I don't want to.

I'm not going to bother with tagging because I have no friends, lol. I guess you can do it if you want.

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( Feels like insomnia... )